The beginnings of frustration...

I hate technology. I feel like the 21st century has left me behind. Im thirty-three years old and when it comes to figuring out everyday life in this computer age I feel like a six year old. Up to this point I've pretty much ignored all the things I did not want to deal with because I never felt like I've been able to keep up. Everything has become so complicated. It doesn't help that my life has taken a few steps back since the beginning of this year. Even now I find myself on dial-up again. It makes everything so frustrating. Even finding a job has become nothing but a never ending aggravation. Everything is online now. No one wants to see a person anymore. They want everything at their own convenience. And since when do you need a resume to apply for a job at a grocery store?!

I feel like I'm not cut out for the present so I'm definitely not prepared for the future. I have also been doing research regarding becoming a freelance writer. This is the only thing I've ever cared anything about doing. I have always wanted to be a novelist, but it seems that no one wants anything to do with an unpublished noob. I never had any desire to write articles or anything like that. I just never cared for it. Everyone keeps saying that you should get published on websites and in magazines and newspapers. Now it seems I have very little choice but to conform to society to follow my dream. I've never been very good at conforming to anything, but if I want to have any kind of future it seems I have no choice.

Now that I've properly vented I would like to discuss my plans for the blog. I originally wanted to use it as an online journal, but that didn't work out for me. I then changed things up and was only going to use it to post poetry and deep thoughts. I never really planned on using it as an actual blog. Well all that is changing. I'm going to give blogging a try. I suppose my blog could best be summed up by my new tag line. It's going to follow my endeavors to conform to a digital age I am not really comfortable in to see my dream of becoming a wtiter come true. I still plan on posting some poems and other bits as well. So this is me making an attempt at a semi-professional blog. We'll see what happens. Maybe I'm not as stubborn as I think I am. Oh wait, yes I am. Here's me trying with a smile.